to you

Who am I??? I am the one
The one that you rush
The one that you push
I am the one who is hurt
I feel like im down in the dirt…
I need you to help me
I need you to love me
Love me?
Ha who am I kidding!!!
Do you wanna love me?
Or do ya just wanna fuck me!!
I need to stand strong
I know that it’s wrong
Why did I do it???
Why’d I go thru it?
Does it show all your affection???
The fact that you used protection??
Im dying in heart…
Im dying in soul…
Im dying in spirit….
I scream for help….
But nobody hears it
I gave it up
I gave you my love
I was hurt before
Never again would it happen…
That’s what I swore
I don’t know what to do...
I think I love you
But I know what is right
And what is wrong…
And that was all wrong…
It’s like an addiction
Seemed so good at first…
It even seemed right
Now I look back…
And loose sleep every night…
-ajjaco